I posted than I deleted it and now im posting it again. This post should be before "Justin Bieber" down below. However just read it okay its about my birthday TY ❤

Today is my birthday. I think it is normal for waiting wishes from our beloved person. So i did wait my parents to wish a happy birthday to me but they disapointed me oh thts okay but then and tht time there was my sister and i told her hey what time is now and she was like oh ya happy birthday be a good girl and blablabla i appreciate tht but it was me who reminded her tht today is my birthday. Idk i feel so fcking upset this morning hm at least i need someone who wish me without im the one who reminding the person first. dont you know how hurt i am? i asked my sister about her birthday i asked hey is there anyone who wish you birthday wishes when its your birtday at 12:00 am precisely? Then she said yeah of course she received a tons of birthday wishes she also got a message from my mother tht is 'happy birthday to her happy birthday to her lalalalala happy birthday to blabla' and some other stuffs i know it because i am the one who typed that message can you imagine how sad i am now? 😢😢😭😭😭😭My sister and i we are totally different she is luckier tho she always is. Now its 1.04 am now i have to sleep and hope that tomorrow will full of surprises. Oh crap i cant sleep i keep thinking about tomorrow hm i need my friends right now where are they can just someone send me a text about my birtday come on today is my born day at this time my mother cant sit still she must be in super pain idk im not a doctor and i also not taking biology subject but i do know when someone is giving birth they really are in a bad condition i cant describe how it feels like when you giving a birth. yknow i was born on 10.12.1997 at 8.36 am so my mom back in 1997 at this time probably cant sleep but she died when i was 1 years old no no i dont feel sorry im okay with it but i guess if my real mom is exist right now she wont forget to wish me right? Im grateful of what i have now its just as an unperfect person i sometimes wonder what would she do if she still alive on my birthday like now? Maybe

 she will send me message or maybe a cake 😭 i dont even know what does she looks like. I know tbh just that not in face to face she died when i was one years old how the hell can i remember what does she feels like her skin her face the way she holds me but i accepted that long years ago its my faith so i will just keep doing what god plans for me i will just wait like im doing right now i do what i has to do. So HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME 😄 🎉🎁🎊 may i be a good girl who please everyone in everthing that i do 😊 goodnight world goodnight ummi i love you i will always love you 😢❤💋👋 thank you for read this bye 💃 lots of love -ainul mardhiah 💕💞💖💓💗