I posted than I deleted it and now im posting it again. This post should be before "Justin Bieber" down below. However just read it okay its about my birthday TY ❤

Today is my birthday. I think it is normal for waiting wishes from our beloved person. So i did wait my parents to wish a happy birthday to me but they disapointed me oh thts okay but then and tht time there was my sister and i told her hey what time is now and she was like oh ya happy birthday be a good girl and blablabla i appreciate tht but it was me who reminded her tht today is my birthday. Idk i feel so fcking upset this morning hm at least i need someone who wish me without im the one who reminding the person first. dont you know how hurt i am? i asked my sister about her birthday i asked hey is there anyone who wish you birthday wishes when its your birtday at 12:00 am precisely? Then she said yeah of course she received a tons of birthday wishes she also got a message from my mother tht is 'happy birthday to her happy birthday to her lalalalala happy birthday to blabla' and some other stuffs i know it because i am the one who typed that message can you imagine how sad i am now? 😢😢😭😭😭😭My sister and i we are totally different she is luckier tho she always is. Now its 1.04 am now i have to sleep and hope that tomorrow will full of surprises. Oh crap i cant sleep i keep thinking about tomorrow hm i need my friends right now where are they can just someone send me a text about my birtday come on today is my born day at this time my mother cant sit still she must be in super pain idk im not a doctor and i also not taking biology subject but i do know when someone is giving birth they really are in a bad condition i cant describe how it feels like when you giving a birth. yknow i was born on 10.12.1997 at 8.36 am so my mom back in 1997 at this time probably cant sleep but she died when i was 1 years old no no i dont feel sorry im okay with it but i guess if my real mom is exist right now she wont forget to wish me right? Im grateful of what i have now its just as an unperfect person i sometimes wonder what would she do if she still alive on my birthday like now? Maybe

 she will send me message or maybe a cake 😭 i dont even know what does she looks like. I know tbh just that not in face to face she died when i was one years old how the hell can i remember what does she feels like her skin her face the way she holds me but i accepted that long years ago its my faith so i will just keep doing what god plans for me i will just wait like im doing right now i do what i has to do. So HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME 😄 🎉🎁🎊 may i be a good girl who please everyone in everthing that i do 😊 goodnight world goodnight ummi i love you i will always love you 😢❤💋👋 thank you for read this bye 💃 lots of love -ainul mardhiah 💕💞💖💓💗

Grammar mistakes

Hey im sure my previous post have a lot of grammar mistakes im sorry im still on learning process of english. I posted it in english bcs english is use to communicate with others its worldwide i mean at least u can understand what am i talking right? So thnk you for read this bye xoxo ❤

Woke up from bed and this popped out👇

Hey good morning. So this morning i realize that i love my family i love everything what they gave to me EVERYTHING so i shall never disapointed at all its just me i have to change my thoughts , perspective that kind of positive things grow up ainul u r now officialy  16 years old. U have lived 16 years in this world. That is great its fcking cool thank you mom because you raise me up until i become this big 😙 give all the money that i need, protecting me, scolding me, all of it happened for some reasons lol. And also thnks to my father he sacrified a lot of things he sent me to school, pick me up, iron my schools' attire (when i was 11) teach me how to do good deeds, and so on i cant list all the things its too many😌 and the the last person i want to thank is my sister. She is the person who makes me happy. Just that sometimes shes heartless tbh but she is still my sister my only sibling that i have. Shes there when i needed her not everytime tho lol she adviced me shes kind of sucks but in anyway she tried to help me. But this one is so special he is Omari Hes always there when i feel bad, anxious, happy, sad, angry, i told him all the feelings that i felt at that particular moment. Even though he is a cat and he cant reply me not giving any reaction but still he is my HERO 😺 he knows what i feel he knows why am i suffering he knows why do i feel anxious he knows all the reason just he cannot reply but i feel so relief everytime i told him about my probs and all that. So thnks to my cat omari 😻. I guess this is the end of my note for today. Thank you because you are willingly read this. THANKS ✌